In my 22 years of existence I enjoyed my life too much?! maybe not. Now that I tried to live my life to the fullest/ YOLO life, I end up fucking up in one single night. Why is that? because I am a very irresponsible child! I am very reckless and stupid. But Im smart enough to know that I am very stupid. hahaha! I can’t believe myself.
I tried to stop things I know that but I was too weak to refuse temptations. I was stupid enough to do such reckless things. Never in my life did I expect this to happen. It is very humiliating and shit I can’t even describe what Im feeling right now. I just hope things would just go away! I just want to forget. I just hope I could rewind things but I can’t. I hope this is just a bad dream that when I wake-up it would go away. But it is not. It would never go away.
What are the thoughts that came to me when this happen? Yes, my mom was right about me that I am very irresponsible and that she could not trust me. Guess what? she was right. I am not trust worthy, I am WORTHLESS.
Make-up. Brown and black/gray-ish eye shawdow, gel liner, nude lipstick and face contour (bronzer)